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Fri, Nov. 27th, 2009, 12:54 pm
I had a dream last night... it was not what i expected. i was not who i expected, and that was the most disturbing part of all. his actions were fairly normal based on my experiences, but... it's been a long time. why did i see him now? why didn't i see that other boy? and why am i dreaming things like that?
Sat, Oct. 24th, 2009, 08:51 pm
what indeed
There is nothing left to lose Despite the time we've spent... Nothing left for you And I... Still had the feeling I won't find in you what I still sought So what am I to do?!
human life is expensive and temporary burn yourself away stand and fight you’ll learn it was unneccesary no home go to anyway there’s no such thing as home noone remembers you you can’t go back and your shit has gone there’s nothing to return to you never wanted me anyway you made it clear anyway I’m fine without you anyway I’m fine without you
Sat, Sep. 19th, 2009, 01:58 am
was compared to T'Pol today. i guess i feel a little better. maybe. Tue, Sep. 8th, 2009, 12:44 pm
lasted about a week without crying. guess i gotta try harder. Wed, Sep. 2nd, 2009, 04:04 am
baseball...
it's pretty simple. 3 strikes and you're out. 4 balls and you walk. stike one was cause i got too excited. i never would've hit that far enough. strike two i messed up because i hesitated in the beginning. i was still a bit shaken after strike one. there better not be a goddamned strike 3, or i'm out. Tue, Sep. 1st, 2009, 01:23 am
I Wonder...
I wonder, I wonder I wonder why each little bird has a someone To sing to, sweet things to A gay little lark melody? I wonder, I wonder I wonder if my heart keeps singing Will my song go winging To someone, who'll find me And bring back a love song to me? Sat, Aug. 29th, 2009, 01:45 am
Can't sleep. I miss being happy. I'm still trying, but I still come home and cry. Fuck. Thu, Aug. 27th, 2009, 01:36 am
1 month
no real improvement. you really fucked my life to hell.
Thu, Aug. 13th, 2009, 10:47 am
What am I supposed to do now? I don't even know what I can do. Maybe once I stop crying, feeling sick to my stomach, suffocating... I can pretend I have a normal life. Sun, Aug. 2nd, 2009, 07:40 pm
I thought he was an angel Beautiful and kind I thought he was an angel Till the day he ran away And blew my mind I tried to hold him Keep him in my arms He was so cold And when he smiled I felt My heart was torn apart I thought we had a thing Much deeper than the usual feeling And after all I was too blind To see our love deceasing I thought he was my baby Innocent but wise I thought he was my baby But I didn't see the sadness in his eyes I couldn't stop him Did I even try? I'd send him letters if I had the chance But there'll be no reply I thought we had a thing Much deeper than the usual feeling And after all I was too blind To see our love deceasing
Fri, Jul. 31st, 2009, 11:27 pm
I failed.
"What you do with your life is just one half of the equation, what's more important is who you're with when you're doing it."
I'll be waiting...for you...so... If you come here... You'll find me. I promise.
Yes. It was flawed, but it WAS my happiness.
For sticking the knife in my back. For twisting the knife in my back.
Tue, Mar. 25th, 2008, 01:51 am
im afraid afraid there was something i missed, something i overlooked or took for granted i dont feel good right now will it get better? i dont know if i can survive if it doesnt praying wont work pleading wont work hope is no good i guess ill have to wait... being scared and waiting dont go well together
Sun, Oct. 28th, 2007, 12:54 pm
well, i've been a bitch... and a really bad hypocrite. sorry all haven't been up to much. lots of sewing, going to das bunker, blah blah blah. i need to get my ass in gear.
Fri, Aug. 31st, 2007, 11:29 am
people are strange school is back. went to a marilyn manson concert... it was amazing, and i didn't even realise how many songs he sung 1-if i was your vampire 2-disposable teens 3-mOBSCENE 4-are you the rabbit? 5-sweet dreams/lunchbox medley 6-just a car crash away 7-heart shaped glasses 8-rock is dead 9-dope show 10-fight song 11-reflecting god 12-antichrist superstar 13-the beautiful people wow... add that to the list of wierd thigs. 13 songs... Mon, Jul. 23rd, 2007, 02:31 pm
:)
Tue, Jul. 17th, 2007, 11:18 am
boredom
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