urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:harukochan (secrets) harukochan 2009-12-10T11:49:37Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:harukochan:56473 2009-12-10T11:49:37Z 2009-12-10T11:49:37Z Taste in Men (Adrian Sherwood Go Go Dub Mix) - Placebo that's really all i have to say. fucking conflicted right now and i hate it so much. why the hell did i go out with you? why did you fucking LIE to me for 2 years? GOD i was stupid.<br /><br />ps: stop lying about possibly drinking, you asshole. you'll never drink knowingly. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:harukochan:56077 2009-11-27T20:55:04Z 2009-11-27T20:55:04Z Unintended - Muse I had a dream last night...<br />it was not what i expected. i was not who i expected, and that was the most disturbing part of all. his actions were fairly normal based on my experiences, but... it's been a long time. why did i see him now? why didn't i see that other boy? and why am i dreaming things like that? urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:harukochan:55938 2009-10-25T03:55:08Z 2009-10-25T03:55:08Z And I... - Wolfsheim There is nothing left to lose<br />Despite the time we've spent...<br />Nothing left for you<br />And I...<br />Still had the feeling<br />I won't find in you<br />what I still sought<br />So what am I to do?! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:harukochan:55592 2009-10-02T07:20:25Z 2009-10-02T07:20:25Z Lullaby - Deathboy human life is expensive and temporary<br />burn yourself away<br /><br />stand and fight<br />you’ll learn it was unneccesary<br />no home go to anyway<br /><br />there’s no such thing as home<br />noone remembers you<br />you can’t go back and your shit has gone<br />there’s nothing to return to<br /><br />you never wanted me<br />anyway<br />you made it clear<br />anyway<br /><br />I’m fine without you<br />anyway<br />I’m fine without you urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:harukochan:55378 2009-09-19T08:59:19Z 2009-09-19T08:59:19Z was compared to T'Pol today.<br />i guess i feel a little better.<br />maybe. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:harukochan:55221 2009-09-08T19:45:02Z 2009-09-08T19:45:02Z lasted about a week without crying. guess i gotta try harder. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:harukochan:54891 2009-09-02T11:17:27Z 2009-09-02T11:17:27Z it's pretty simple.<br />3 strikes and you're out.<br />4 balls and you walk.<br /><br />stike one was cause i got too excited. i never would've hit that far enough.<br />strike two i messed up because i hesitated in the beginning. <br />i was still a bit shaken after strike one.<br />there better not be a goddamned strike 3, or i'm out. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:harukochan:54626 2009-09-01T08:24:28Z 2009-09-01T08:24:28Z I wonder, I wonder<br />I wonder why each little bird has a someone<br />To sing to, sweet things to<br />A gay little lark melody?<br /><br />I wonder, I wonder<br />I wonder if my heart keeps singing<br />Will my song go winging<br />To someone, who'll find me<br />And bring back a love song to me? urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:harukochan:54384 2009-08-29T08:46:25Z 2009-08-29T08:46:25Z Can't sleep.<br />I miss being happy.<br />I'm still trying, but I still come home and cry.<br /><br />Fuck. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:harukochan:54068 2009-08-27T08:38:27Z 2009-08-27T08:38:27Z Depeche Mode - "A Pain That I'm Used To" no real improvement.<br />you really fucked my life to hell. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:harukochan:53958 2009-08-13T17:49:50Z 2009-08-13T17:49:50Z What am I supposed to do now? I don't even know what I <i>can</i> do. Maybe once I stop crying, feeling sick to my stomach, suffocating... I can pretend I have a normal life. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:harukochan:53688 2009-08-03T02:42:47Z 2009-08-03T02:42:47Z Deeper Than the Usual Feeling - Beton Beborn I thought he was an angel <br />Beautiful and kind <br />I thought he was an angel <br />Till the day he ran away <br />And blew my mind<br /><br />I tried to hold him <br />Keep him in my arms <br />He was so cold <br />And when he smiled I felt <br />My heart was torn apart<br /><br />I thought we had a thing <br />Much deeper than the usual feeling <br />And after all I was too blind <br />To see our love deceasing<br /><br />I thought he was my baby <br />Innocent but wise <br />I thought he was my baby <br />But I didn't see the sadness in his eyes<br /><br />I couldn't stop him <br />Did I even try? <br />I'd send him letters if I had the chance <br />But there'll be no reply<br /><br />I thought we had a thing <br />Much deeper than the usual feeling <br />And after all I was too blind <br />To see our love deceasing urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:harukochan:53434 2009-08-01T06:28:35Z 2009-08-01T06:28:35Z "What you do with your life is just one half of the equation, what's more important is who you're with when you're doing it." urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:harukochan:53127 2009-07-28T08:27:29Z 2009-07-28T08:27:29Z Fithos Lusec Wecos Vinosec - ffviii I'll be waiting...for you...so...<br />If you come here...<br />You'll find me.<br />I promise. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:harukochan:52957 2009-07-27T11:17:07Z 2009-07-27T11:17:07Z Web of Night - T.M. Revolution Yes.<br />It was flawed,<br />but it WAS my happiness. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:harukochan:52712 2008-11-18T07:23:47Z 2008-11-18T07:23:47Z "Like to Thank My Buddies" - Combichrist For sticking the knife in my back.<br />For twisting the knife in my back. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:harukochan:52237 2008-03-25T08:57:13Z 2008-03-25T08:57:13Z im afraid<br />afraid there was something i missed, something i overlooked or took for granted<br />i dont feel good right now<br />will it get better?<br />i dont know if i can survive if it doesnt<br />praying wont work<br />pleading wont work<br />hope is no good<br />i guess ill have to wait...<br /><br />being scared and waiting dont go well together urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:harukochan:51815 2007-10-28T19:59:18Z 2007-10-28T19:59:18Z Party of the Second Part - Bauhaus well, i've been a bitch... and a really bad hypocrite.<br />sorry all<br /><br />haven't been up to much. lots of sewing, going to das bunker, blah blah blah. <br />i need to get my ass in gear. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:harukochan:51356 2007-08-31T18:33:26Z 2007-08-31T18:33:26Z people are strange<br />school is back.<br /><br />went to a marilyn manson concert...<br />it was amazing, and i didn't even realise how many songs he sung<br />1-if i was your vampire<br />2-disposable teens<br />3-mOBSCENE<br />4-are you the rabbit?<br />5-sweet dreams/lunchbox medley<br />6-just a car crash away<br />7-heart shaped glasses<br />8-rock is dead<br />9-dope show<br />10-fight song<br />11-reflecting god<br />12-antichrist superstar<br />13-the beautiful people<br /><br />wow... add that to the list of wierd thigs. 13 songs... urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:harukochan:51182 2007-07-23T21:32:01Z 2007-07-23T21:32:01Z <img src="http://images.ucomics.com/comics/nq/2007/nq070722.gif"> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:harukochan:50894 2007-07-17T18:24:47Z 2007-07-17T18:28:06Z Mr Superstar - Marilyn Manson this is what happens when i have a day off and i get really really bored...<br /><img src="http://i82.photobucket.com/albums/j247/liiansa/rosecake.jpg"><br /><br /><br /><img src="http://i82.photobucket.com/albums/j247/liiansa/turtles.jpg"> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:harukochan:50624 2007-07-07T21:47:57Z 2007-07-07T21:47:57Z Imagine - A Perfect Circle we found out why the digital projector is wierd...<br />it runs in linux.<br /><br /><br />that's mann theatres for you urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:harukochan:50187 2007-07-06T23:47:02Z 2007-07-06T23:47:02Z Gerbera - MUCC does having one "Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix" temporary tattoo on each arm make me a geek? urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:harukochan:50140 2007-07-05T23:52:31Z 2007-07-05T23:52:31Z The Rest - Akira Yamaoka (SH2?) <a href="http://www.evilmadscientist.com/article.php/hotdogs">http://www.evilmadscientist.com/article.php/hotdogs</a> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:harukochan:49780 2007-07-04T23:43:56Z 2007-07-04T23:43:56Z Get Your Gunn - Marilyn Manson i guess nothing that interesting has happened?<br /><br />went to AX in long beach. crappy motel...<br />waited in line 5 hours on friday to get the passes.<br />met Mary Elizabeth McGlynn <a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Mary_Elizabeth_McGlynn">http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Mary_Elizabeth_McGlynn</a><br />had her sign my SH shirt (the pyramid head one)<br />didn't see man-faye, but did see man-tifa <a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Tifa_Lockhart">http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Tifa_Lockhart</a><br />watched Howl's moving castle again (gotta love thet anime butt XD)<br /><br />today, i'm gonna check and see if my old house is empty. maybe watch the fireworks there, or at the old neighbors...<br /><br />then, TRANSFORMERS!<br />which, btw, has a very interesting preview...<br />the movie is being called "Cloverfield" although it doesn't officially have a title yet.<br />all the trailer tells you is that it's a J.J. Abrams <a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Jj_abrams">http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Jj_abrams</a> film currently set to come out in January of '08 (18th i think)<br />from what i can tell it looks like something between transformers and godzilla, and most people say it's going to be a monter movie. whatever. looks good.<br /><br />also i urge everyone to go read "30 Days of Night" and the rest of that series... <br />they're coming out with the movie in October and it looks damn good.<br />yay vampires<br /><br />anyways, more work to do<br /><br />(thank god for wiki, eh? -.-;;;)