秘密Himitsu

FUCK YOU

Thu, 10 Dec 2009 11:49:37 GMT

that's really all i have to say. fucking conflicted right now and i hate it so much. why the hell did i go out with you? why did you fucking LIE to me for 2 years? GOD i was stupid.

ps: stop lying about possibly drinking, you asshole. you'll never drink knowingly.

Fri, 27 Nov 2009 20:55:04 GMT

I had a dream last night...
it was not what i expected. i was not who i expected, and that was the most disturbing part of all. his actions were fairly normal based on my experiences, but... it's been a long time. why did i see him now? why didn't i see that other boy? and why am i dreaming things like that?

what indeed

Sun, 25 Oct 2009 03:55:08 GMT

There is nothing left to lose
Despite the time we've spent...
Nothing left for you
And I...
Still had the feeling
I won't find in you
what I still sought
So what am I to do?!

lulluby indeed...

Fri, 02 Oct 2009 07:20:25 GMT

human life is expensive and temporary
burn yourself away

stand and fight
you’ll learn it was unneccesary
no home go to anyway

there’s no such thing as home
noone remembers you
you can’t go back and your shit has gone
there’s nothing to return to

you never wanted me
anyway
you made it clear
anyway

I’m fine without you
anyway
I’m fine without you

Sat, 19 Sep 2009 08:59:19 GMT

was compared to T'Pol today.
i guess i feel a little better.
maybe.

Tue, 08 Sep 2009 19:45:02 GMT

lasted about a week without crying. guess i gotta try harder.

baseball...

Wed, 02 Sep 2009 11:17:27 GMT

it's pretty simple.
3 strikes and you're out.
4 balls and you walk.

stike one was cause i got too excited. i never would've hit that far enough.
strike two i messed up because i hesitated in the beginning.
i was still a bit shaken after strike one.
there better not be a goddamned strike 3, or i'm out.

I Wonder...

Tue, 01 Sep 2009 08:24:28 GMT

I wonder, I wonder
I wonder why each little bird has a someone
To sing to, sweet things to
A gay little lark melody?

I wonder, I wonder
I wonder if my heart keeps singing
Will my song go winging
To someone, who'll find me
And bring back a love song to me?

Sat, 29 Aug 2009 08:46:25 GMT

Can't sleep.
I miss being happy.
I'm still trying, but I still come home and cry.

Fuck.

1 month

Thu, 27 Aug 2009 08:38:27 GMT

no real improvement.
you really fucked my life to hell.

Thu, 13 Aug 2009 17:49:50 GMT

What am I supposed to do now? I don't even know what I can do. Maybe once I stop crying, feeling sick to my stomach, suffocating... I can pretend I have a normal life.

Mon, 03 Aug 2009 02:42:47 GMT

I thought he was an angel
Beautiful and kind
I thought he was an angel
Till the day he ran away
And blew my mind

I tried to hold him
Keep him in my arms
He was so cold
And when he smiled I felt
My heart was torn apart

I thought we had a thing
Much deeper than the usual feeling
And after all I was too blind
To see our love deceasing

I thought he was my baby
Innocent but wise
I thought he was my baby
But I didn't see the sadness in his eyes

I couldn't stop him
Did I even try?
I'd send him letters if I had the chance
But there'll be no reply

I thought we had a thing
Much deeper than the usual feeling
And after all I was too blind
To see our love deceasing

I failed.

Sat, 01 Aug 2009 06:28:35 GMT

"What you do with your life is just one half of the equation, what's more important is who you're with when you're doing it."

I'll be 'waiting'...here...

Tue, 28 Jul 2009 08:27:29 GMT

I'll be waiting...for you...so...
If you come here...
You'll find me.
I promise.

It was flawed...

Mon, 27 Jul 2009 11:17:07 GMT

Yes.
It was flawed,
but it WAS my happiness.

I'd like to thank my buddies...

Tue, 18 Nov 2008 07:23:47 GMT

For sticking the knife in my back.
For twisting the knife in my back.

Tue, 25 Mar 2008 08:57:13 GMT

im afraid
afraid there was something i missed, something i overlooked or took for granted
i dont feel good right now
will it get better?
i dont know if i can survive if it doesnt
praying wont work
pleading wont work
hope is no good
i guess ill have to wait...

being scared and waiting dont go well together

Sun, 28 Oct 2007 19:59:18 GMT

well, i've been a bitch... and a really bad hypocrite.
sorry all

haven't been up to much. lots of sewing, going to das bunker, blah blah blah.
i need to get my ass in gear.

Fri, 31 Aug 2007 18:33:26 GMT

people are strange
school is back.

went to a marilyn manson concert...
it was amazing, and i didn't even realise how many songs he sung
1-if i was your vampire
2-disposable teens
3-mOBSCENE
4-are you the rabbit?
5-sweet dreams/lunchbox medley
6-just a car crash away
7-heart shaped glasses
8-rock is dead
9-dope show
10-fight song
11-reflecting god
12-antichrist superstar
13-the beautiful people

wow... add that to the list of wierd thigs. 13 songs...

:)

Mon, 23 Jul 2007 21:32:01 GMT

boredom

Tue, 17 Jul 2007 18:24:47 GMT

this is what happens when i have a day off and i get really really bored...

...

Sat, 07 Jul 2007 21:47:57 GMT

we found out why the digital projector is wierd...
it runs in linux.

that's mann theatres for you

Fri, 06 Jul 2007 23:47:02 GMT

does having one "Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix" temporary tattoo on each arm make me a geek?

wow

Thu, 05 Jul 2007 23:52:31 GMT

http://www.evilmadscientist.com/article.php/hotdogs

after more than 1 month of silence...

Wed, 04 Jul 2007 23:43:56 GMT

i guess nothing that interesting has happened?

went to AX in long beach. crappy motel...
waited in line 5 hours on friday to get the passes.
met Mary Elizabeth McGlynn http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Mary_Elizabeth_McGlynn
had her sign my SH shirt (the pyramid head one)
didn't see man-faye, but did see man-tifa http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Tifa_Lockhart
watched Howl's moving castle again (gotta love thet anime butt XD)

today, i'm gonna check and see if my old house is empty. maybe watch the fireworks there, or at the old neighbors...

then, TRANSFORMERS!
which, btw, has a very interesting preview...
the movie is being called "Cloverfield" although it doesn't officially have a title yet.
all the trailer tells you is that it's a J.J. Abrams http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Jj_abrams film currently set to come out in January of '08 (18th i think)
from what i can tell it looks like something between transformers and godzilla, and most people say it's going to be a monter movie. whatever. looks good.

also i urge everyone to go read "30 Days of Night" and the rest of that series...
they're coming out with the movie in October and it looks damn good.
yay vampires

anyways, more work to do

(thank god for wiki, eh? -.-;;;)